That's what I am feeling now.
i hope it's because I'm tired...

Lost and just... Lost.
I don't know about myself anymore.
It's just... damn.
I want to slap myself awake.
I really want to.
Or even punch myself if it works at all.

I wished I haven't said anything in the first place
Then I wouldn't have offended people.
Screw this stupid mouth of mine.
If I can't even settle myself, why the hell am I saying things to others?
Screw this...

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I get frustrated because i am not doing marketing well.
I am screwing the subject.
What happened to me saying I want to do well?
Damn.
I don't know.
All I know is I need to focus for this final assignment.
I have to show it.

Maybe some hardship will teach me something...

I will probably find Mei Sin and ask her about the OCP thing.
Most importantly is the subsidy thing...
I heard from juniors that
in this kind of thing
I will have to withstand the poor living conditions.
Yes, that's what I need.
Hardship, i need to learn something from that.

As mentally weak as I really am
I am still mentally strong.
Ever seen any guy motivating himself before?
Gay or retarded?
Think twice, it's not as easy as any of you think it is.

I wont let life get the worst of me.

I will stand there.
I will withstand whatever shit I'm given.
That's how i start appreciating life as a whole.