I hate rushing assignments.

It makes u annoyed

and shows that you are not disciplined enough.

Seriously

Makes me wonder why did chose

this course in the first place.

Freaking Hell.

Oh yeah.

and I told myself during the holidays

I was going to be ready for this semester.

...

Guess not huh?

Nevermind.

I need to pull through this

and then I can a break.

Jia you!

God I just love this picture.

:D

I remembered watching the game 4 halfway

where I randomly thought of the moment

LeBron threw a vicious dunk over Garnett.

so that made me thought...

"Will Wade's turn ever come?"

A few minutes later.

He just swoosh in and threw that over Garnett.

...

Yeah. I just punched my fist into the air.

It freaking came true.

It just freaking did.

So later.

7am.

Heat vs Celtics game 5

An all-or-nothing match.

Go HEAT!!

19 Points in the 4th quarter.

Celtics as a whole scored 15 points in the 4th.

Now compare that.

Wade outscored them alone.

Sadly, Heat is still down 1-3

one more loss and the season ends here.

But hey

Thank Wade for putting up a show.

46 points and just scorching the entire Celtics team.

I am short of words now.

Just let his playing do the talking yeah?

Anyway

assignments piling up.

Italian quiz tomorrow some more.

Looking forward to

Game 5 @ Wednesday 7am.

But workload will decide whether I watch or skip.

Currently watching game 4

possibly a final game

or a hot 4th quarter to revive the series.

But in case Heat loses

The feeling will really suck.

It's like watching someone with horrible attitude

walking away with the the reward

even though they really are capable...

It just pierce straight into your heart.

Ouch.

Anyway

after the match

Gonna get a quick rest

and then start working on

the assignment.

I think I'm learning more and more

things in life especially

which I feel is a good thing.

I'm happy for myself

Maybe sometimes

we look back and start thinking

how emotional and foolish we used to be

but

I guess I must still appreciate them

because if it weren't for them

I wouldn't have become who I am now.

I may not be the best person

the nicest, smartest, good-looking etc.

But I guess being yourself is the most important.

Good night people.

Yesterday was fun.

Like really haven't had so much fun in a while.

Although I didn't play much or well

it was still enjoyable.

The 4-on-4 whereby we won by 1 point

was the wildest experience I've ever had.

It was wild to me

because the whole game was going so fast.

Normally in games, I would have time to think, predict and respond.

Yesterday turned out to be exact opposite.

The whole game was so fast

I could only react on the spot and

there was just no time to think.

One of the worst parts were their pick-and-rolls

3 consecutive times

could have killed us, like seriously.

On the whole I didn't contribute much

but it felt good to win.

But I have to agree with Chang Xu

By right we should have lost that match

if they had shot the ball well.

Many of their balls just bounced off the rim.

Nevertheless

the experience was good.

Slept nearly 10 hours after that

today...

assignments.

HAIZ.

-.-

Thinking to watch

Heat vs Celtics at 1am later.

This could be the very last match

or

the Heat will put up a good show

to get back in the series.

Go HEAT!!

Waiting for the dreadful rain to stop.

I have a huge flaw

something very few people can see

because I guess

I don't usually show it.

The flaw?

Hatred and anger.

Sounds pretty serious.

if you know me well enough

I don't get really angry that easily.

So of course if that happens

it means something isn't right.

I'm not saying I am always right

but I will always try my best to tolerate

and avoid any conflicts possible.

But I can get really annoyed

if it happens over and over again.

And when that happens

I start to despise that person

and whatever he do will never be right.

The worst thing is that

even though in my heart I can see something good in that person

That person will remain on the black list.

Yes, no matter how,

it seems impossible for me to accept that person.

I'm not aiming at anyone here.

But just addressing a problem of mine

which been around for long.

But like I said

I just somehow can't bring myself to accept that person anymore.

Yeah. Hopefully

it is something I can deal as I mature.

I know very well how much I hate conflicts.

Damn.

I hate Celtics so much.

I can't deny they are good.

But they trash-talking and pride are getting on my nerves.

and

to think i used to respect them so much.

Alright.

Rain is going away

Off to play ball!

Reflection.

Learn to stop thinking too much.

Just let them come naturally.

Nobody's perfect.

Everybody's bad at something.

Past is the past.

But they leave everlasting experiences and memories.

Future will be uncertain

But they give excitement and motivation.

We have the present though.

Learn to treasure them

for every moment they will become the past.

Yeah.

Sometimes I feel that I stress myself so much

that I don't give myself enough credits for my effort.

Alright.

Preparing for school.

Geez. Last time wake up 7+ to get to school.

Now 3-4+ then go school.

What a huge change man -.-

Change's been going on every day.

My family especially

has been a huge part of my life

I've seen many things that sometimes

I wonder will I be the next to change?

But I will be certain that I want myself to be myself.

Yeah.

Anyway

Weekends! Weeee!

Breakfast, Basketball and...

Assignments.

Ciao!

Ciao!

Io mi chiami Yong Xi.

Sono Singaporeano.

Studio a Temasek Polytechnic

la scuola e Disegno

Italian class.

Nothing but tough shit.

Can't wait for weekends to come
then I can play ball again.
:D

I kind of regret not joining basketball...
but then again
I don't think I would have made the team anyway.


I just respect him so much.
Haha. Dwyane Wade FTW!

Some people hate him, criticize him
but whatever
There will always be likes and dislikes in this world.
Nobody's perfect.
But still
Respects to this man
for making me love the game so much.
(Y)

Woots!

Anyhow find

and found this simple blogskin

so why not change?

For 2 straight months

I will getting late lessons.

geez...

But on the bright side of things

and after that

I have a month of nothing to do

But

good break before my project 2 starts

Alright

Off to school.

Wouldn't it be amazing
if all of our lives
could be portrayed like that?

Life isn't for long
but memories are.

---

A few things to look forward to for now.

I have to figure out what I can do during that time

Maybe going back to TK

Breakfast and maybe Basketball

For now that's about all.

An interesting thought

I know it's not a joking matter

but...

I wonder what happens

If i had to leave this world earlier?

Who will shed tears for me?

Will I leave an impact?

Haha.

Okay.

Shut up Yong Xi :X

Year Two started out great I guess

:]

Had fun with a few IAD peeps

playing board games at EHub.

Although I guess

we should have eaten elsewhere.

Somehow

I don't know why

but

My appetite is just...

getting worst.

I'm eating lesser and lesser.

I really don't know what's wrong.

Hopefully it isn't anything serious.

Alright, class starts tomorrow

let's just see how I perform tomorrow.

Sometimes kids are annoying.
But guess we just need to see a cuter side of them.
:]

I guess we are all the cutest when we don't know anything.
cheers!

PLAYOFFS!!!!!!!

EXCITED!!!!!!

YES!!!!!!

:D

---

I like to daydream

I like to dream about what I can do in the future
the best is that I can impact people's lives.

I'd always imagine myself
in other rural countries
trying to make a difference in their lives
even if it's a little bit

They don't need game consoles
They don't need expensive accessories
They just need necessities
clothes, shoes, food, anything we would use every day.

Anything like that can bring smiles to their faces.
It's so simple, isn't it?

I don't know if I can do that in the future.
But I will hope so.. :]

It's seriously a funny picture
but it automatically brings a smile to our faces too
:]

It's decided.

HEAT vs CELTICS

(Eastern conference first-round match-up)

I'm pretty pumped up for this

a lot more than going against Hawks.

Even though they went 0-3 against Celtics in the season.

Coming to the playoffs will be a different thing.

I'm pretty sure if

the HEAT plays consistent

plays focused

plays Good D

we are gonna pull out this upset

and dethrone the Celtics.

Game 1 [SG time]

Sunday, 8am

HEAT @ CELTICS

09-10 sophomores: Michael Beasley and Mario Chalmers

Celtics Big Three: Paul Pierce, Kevin Garnett, Ray Allen

Dwyane Wade and Jermaine O'neal

Let's go HEAT!!

I will try to be as crazy as I can.

Haha this blog cannot go emo forever.

Hornets came back and beat me by 4 points.

Damn it -.-

Better luck next time.

---

Anyway

I was watching the show Zombieland with my brother

I tell you

I was a freaking sissy.

I hate gore so... can't be helped -.-

Actually the show wasn't too disgusting because

it was supposed to be a comedy.

There are worst zombie shows than this.

And I will not watch them.

School's gonna re-open soon.

Somehow I feel so-so about it :/

But the idea that popped up is that

I think I wanna do morning jogs before I head to school.

Like either every morning or alternate days.

They say it helps you to stay fresh and also

I think exercising will keep me healthy.

for 17 years in my life
I think I've been an extra easy-going and tolerant guy.
Whether small shit or big shit come my way
I will shut up and do my best to tahan.

There was this point in sec 4 where I almost hit my friend
because he was being extra childish and effed-up.
But I still held back and just walked off.

Sometimes it makes me wonder
how come when I am sad or angry
it makes no big deal to others.
But when they are sad or angry
I will try to help out, even though sometimes I am totally helpless.

The word 'unfair' just comes to your mind.

Oh well. Whatever.
I also seem to hate it if people think I've changed to become a different person.

I mean...
I know myself alright.
How can a person who thinks a hell lot about every possible shit
not know himself well enough?

Alright, enough thoughts.
Life's gonna be better.
This shit will get through fine
:]

One more month till my birthday

and I still think I am immature.

Suddenly another low point hits me.

I was okay and suddenly I can't seem to pull myself out from this one.

I've always known myself

as a strong-willed person

Whenever I have personal problems

I tend to depend on myself because I believe that there will be a way out.

I believe that I can make it through

and most of the time I succeeded.

I care a lot about things

sometimes way beyond the limit.

I know I'm the type of person

who is willing to spend hours and hours listening

to someone rant, complain, emo on and on.

Even if I get tired at times, I will still continue to listen

Because that's the right thing to do, isn't it?

I seldom find people to talk about my problems

unless I really don't know what to do.

I get upset sometimes

because when I can spend hours listening to someone talk

they can't seem to do the same.

It's as though my problems aren't big issues.

I get upset but I always tell them "it's okay."

Sometimes it really makes me think

is it because they are selfish or is it just me being selfish?

This is just me

I just like to care more than people.

Because in this reality where people are too involved in their own lives

someone needs to make a difference

Furthermore if I can see this and not be doing anything about it

It won't make the world any better right?

If I can make a change, why shouldn't I?

Caring too much do make me suffer more.

But it really doesn't matter I guess

Because if it makes others happy, so be it.

If I could be given another chance
I would be a better captain
I would go crazy with the guys and try to bond the team together

If only JinYi, Benny, Gwen and Fendy were free
then we can just go out and be crazy again.
No worries and nothing.

I will be okay soon
as soon as school starts
when I know I can work towards something
I will be fine again.

There are people who faced worst fears that I do.
So if they can make it through
I have no reason to back down.
I've done it thousand times in my past 17 years
this is just a bigger challenge
but something I know that I can overcome.

Alright
Ciao for some good O' movies :]

I think it's very true that as you grow up
you start to treasure things more.

When I was young,
I was the typical act-cool boy.
I always never attend outings
and ignore people sometimes.

but as I grow up,
I start to see them as important part of my life.
They become your good friends
and they are your problem-solvers.

You don't need everyone else to acknowledge you
just those who means something to you.

We can say everything else sucks
but never say that nobody cares about you
because that's plain disrespect and annoying.

anyway
sometimes I feel like deleting this blog.
should I?

Haha
will consider :]

kk shall continue my morning jog tmr too.

Speaking of signs...

I think Taurus is awesome
and special.

Because I am one.
hahahahaahah!

What I like about taurus?
Most of the time
Taurus are patient, understanding and firm people
most of the time they are.
They know what to do and when to do, one thing which I really like.
So most of the time
they are easy going and seems to have complete control over emotions.
They also seem to be tolerant and forgive easily.

That was only the good part.
Now here comes the bad part.

We easily get jealous
we are stubborn at times and resist to change.
One thing I really HATE is over-possessiveness
we seem to think that certain things are ours and
that to me is really scary and annoying
I really wanna change that personality of mine
but it seems so hard. But I will still try.

However, theres one bad part I find it quite cool.
Is that when we get over the anger limit,
we can be a beast.
So far, I havent acted that way before
only near that breaking point.
But i do know that once we get angry, things really can get nasty.

It's like, we may be nice and easy-going
but if you cross the limit
don't blame us for what happens.

Haha, I hope I don't really act that way ever
but if that person (not saying anyone) deserves it
why not?

It will be ... interesting.
haha. alright just a random post.
ciao.

Well..
suddenly i just kept quiet.

but in any case.

This may be inappropriate but I just wanna let it all out
and after this...
nothing will really matter anymore

:]

I have been angry at u.
I just felt like I was played around with, or maybe just been one-sided fool the whole time
but that was all the guy dignity thing at work :/

I just appeared to act as though I'm fine.
But as of now, I really AM fine.
really :]

I still wonder if that person is me?
or is that person another guy you fell in love with after me?
I still kind of assume it's me but like I said.
Nothing's really matter anymore.

of course we are still friends
but i find it really hard to communicate with you
I mean I want to show you that I'm not that petty guy
who stops talking after being rejected
but its just the way you reply makes it hard for me to
continue the conversation

But its fine with me
it really is.

because you clearly have good friends there by your side
those are the people you need, the people you can trust and love
I am not and I can guarantee that I will never be as important.

Those are the people who will be there for you
and that is the most important thing
:]

so please dont find me petty or anything :/
but hey, feel free to chat if you want.
just saying hi or anything is fine :]

but there really is one question I wanna ask
ahem
why did you like me in the first place?
i can only recall myself as a nerdy, skinny and unattractive guy
really. I just cannot derive at any answer at all.

haha, I am really interested to know
but yeah. I doubt I will ever get that answer.

anyway it's quite amazing that for these 15 months
I still like you so much.
haha, kind of foolish though :X

so yeah.
I never said this to you in person before...

Thank you for the memories
You were special to me, you really were.
You made a lot of changes to my life you know?
There were sad and happy times but most importantly
you made me grew up.
I'm sure you've learned something too.
Remember the time Fengyi asked me if I liked you?
I never answered so now I shall.
I loved you. I really did.
But now we need to move on, especially me.
If it's meant to be, then it will come.
If it isn't, then it will never come.
take care yeah?

So now, we let go and move on.
We are still so young.
You have a lot other hot guys waiting for you
and I have my cute girls :]

I have my grades to take care off
and of course, to realize my goal, hopefully.

Alright.
Good Night

:]

Originally,
I wanted to go emo

I mean just reflecting on my thoughts.
I have really never felt this troubled before in my life.

But I think its time to move ahead and get on with life.

For these past few days I've been restless
just unmotivated, slacking at home.

I've been troubled as a teen trying to clear some
family issues off my head.
I think I still have a sense of responsibility
and
it isn't right for me to argue about it.
So I will need to learn to approach it in a better way.

You know
for the past 17 years, I've always been wondering and been aware of many things.
A friend of mine commented that
sometimes I am ignorant to friends' feelings

Honestly when I heard that I was kind of dumbfounded
because all the way I've always thought of myself
as the kind of person who put everyone else before me.

Before I even make a decision
I would try to make sure no one gets left behind.

But it turns out that it was all because I was fearful
I was fearful of the consequences

Hmmmm... still...
I kind of disagree to that statement somehow :/

As much as I know myself
If ever i fail to help a troubled friend
I will start thinking a lot and get emotional over it
But I think its time to stop that

if ever I'm needed
that person can approach me
I dont have to dwell over it
and start treating it as my own problem.

I need to stand on my own before people can even depend on me.

Okay
That's all
Im trying to get my life in order now
Holidays ending soon

See ya