Somehow... I am starting to be more optimistic.
Despite the fact that the whole p3 process has been hectic
it seems like things are turning out for the better now.
First of all
I understand what my current scheme is all about.
For the very first time, I understand what it means to have a design concept.
It directs me towards my design and prevents me from being stuck.
For the very first time, i felt the ease of having a simple concept.
I am behind time, but I will work harder and smarter.
At least I know I'm on the right track.
Second of all
I was demoralized and depressed a week ago.
After talking to Ernest I felt better.
I was questioned about my ability to do Architecture.
I felt that I had no ability and no talent to compete.
I was lost.
then Ernest asked me this.
Would I prefer a job with security or a job with challenge?
Naturally, I would say challenges.
Even in basketball, I am always looking for challenges
But I always feel intimidated by failures and the unpredictable.
My answer was I would take challenges.
The whole point was not about whether you would fail or screw up your life over something
you feel that you can't do well
It was about whether you would be able to face all sorts of problems and still take them
with a passion and positive attitude
It was a question of whether you would commit your life to something that difficult.
It was that simple yet difficult to really achieve.
My answer was yes.
Last but not least,
I feel like I really like the whole IAD.
Maybe p3 helped bond us together
For some reason we are especially close this year.
Not just me or whoever but just the entire class.
I've always felt that poly would just be another academic process
I was wrong.
Our class IS something special.
I swear. I will miss this class
Whether or not design is our forte, we actually went through the whole shit together.
Seriously, IAD for the win.
Yeah... Okay shall go to sleep.
Gonna be another hell of a month ahead.
Good night people!