I'm once again at a crossroad stage.

Last time was the whole stage of screwing up P3.
Now, It's made known to me that I can't handle architecture.

No, I don't blame anyone.
There's no point in doing so.

I'm just feeling lost and my head feels heavy currently.

But I'm not giving up.
Like Stephanie told me, just do what you love.
Grades are nothing, Design is bias.

But if you keep working hard and for the fact that you love it,
just do it.
It really doesn't matter what people think.

I've never felt so lost and demoralized in my whole life.
But all I can do is to really keep pushing myself.
Because at the end of this, all I can blame is myself for not pushing hard enough
for not even making the effort to give it a shot.

Everyone is going through the same shit as me.
Some show their tears, some don't.
In fact they show it behind us all.
Everyone goes under the same pressure

Don't apologize for things you had not done.
Saying sorry doesn't help in any way.
Yes I need to toughen up.
I need to man up.

No, I don't wanna prove that I can do architecture
That's not the whole point.
I still have FYP and NS to think about it.
But for now, all I can do is to continue working hard and smart.

Just don't give up.
Don't give up.