1) School starts tomorrow. A whole new beginning. A make or break semester.
2) I've decided to go to Spain. Yeah. Just gotta make full use of it.
3) Played good basketball yesterday. After that went for the movie overnight at Gwen's. We borrowed all the wrong movies but it was fun nonetheless.
4) Cut my hair today. Short hair is still the most cooling after all.
5) Learning to sleep early nowadays. Like now.
6) Gonna read up on this interesting psychology book I borrowed. Hell yeah.
7) I realized that I've been stuck with my own problems. Too caught up I mean.
In the past, I used to be more reserved and was more of a listener. That's why helping people and giving advices was the easiest. Because there was never "me" in the equation. I would analyze their situation, try and see how they feel and only then will I start to speak.
But growing up, I began to change. A necessity I would say because partially I was getting weary of the fact that nobody or majority would choose to listen to my opinions. I started to be more expressive. "Me" was added to the equation such that sometimes I would force my own thinking onto others.
It only became worse when more personal problems surface. During this age of 17-19 (more independence required) I had to deal with them and that obviously magnifies the value of "me" even more that I had to be more concern with myself.
Lately, when I do reflect, I realized that's why I get lesser opportunities to help people. Because my comments really was more about me than them. It's a process of course, something to learn from.
So now that I've gone through both stages, what I need to do is to balance it out. To learn when to care about yourself and when to care more about others. I will also make it an effort to not get lazy and when I feel that something is right, I should do it and not worry about it.
Last but not least, the most important thing I've learn so far is that whatever happens, deal with it.
Yeah. New Semester, New beginning.
To make it a good one, it starts with me.
Good night people.