Here I am

4+ in the morning

Can't seem to sleep at all.

I guess my body clock has changed.

Well I just had some thoughts

so I wanted to post them here.

Blogging is important

Because it constantly reminds me of my thought process

For me especially

since the moment I sleep and wake up

my emotions will start anew

all the previous motivational mood will be gone.

That is John Mayer
and the song I will talk about is
"No Such Thing"

I love this song
and only came to realize the meaning behind it
recently

Basically
it talks about the cliche of having
to follow the "typical" school path to career
and that he wants to follow his own path to success

So yeah. It's about daring to dream.
Dreaming and following it are two different things
I love to do the first
but never the second.

so this song is also my motivation
that I will work hard
and someday reach my goal.

So day one.
Nothing much.
I went to the library
borrowed 4 books
3 on interior spaces
1 on Autocad tips

other than that
the work's gonna come later
only after I've gotten my rest.

So yeah
sometimes I do feel stupid.
Like why do I sound so...
motivated and optimistic?

Honestly
I think we are at the point in our lives
where we have to be serious with what we do

It's kind of a do-or-die situation
and with such stiff competition
I doubt that I can make it to uni even
that just means I will join the workforce soon enough

So to not make things any worse
why not be optimistic?
make the best out of what you've got
when you are optimistic
it's no longer a do-or-die situation
you will start viewing things differently

Best of all
what's there to lose when you are optimistic?
Maybe I will fall over and over again
Maybe I will be wrong at times
Maybe I will make myself a fool many a times
but hey
If you never make mistakes, never be wrong, never look foolish
then what's there to learn in life even?

I realize that that sort of mentality isn't drilled into me
I only accept things and mistakes I want to accept
It shouldn't be that way
I should do something genuinely and if I'm wrong
I learn it the hard way.

So yeah
New pointers for myself.

You know
I may not know what's ahead for me

But until I tried
I will never know if it works
Even if it doesn't
At least I tried.