I was at the bus-stop
really thinking about things.

All along
I've always thought that I am mentally tough.
I guess I have been deceiving myself for so long.

I have been misled by my own actions.
I failed to notice that
laziness and ill-discipline had gotten me into what I am now.

I am not as mentally tough as before anymore.
It's time for me to realize that.

Being mentally strong and not giving up
means to really put in all my effort regardless of the final results.
To tell myself that at the end of everything
I will achieve something.
Despite whether there's any glory in it
I will be contend with what I did.

That's the mindset of being tough mentally.
I have lost it for quite a while.
It's time to really get back into that mood.

Never let the word 'sleep' influence my decisions.
Starting from now until the final submission of P2.
I need to carry that attitude.
I need that attitude to help me survive and at the very least
not disappoint myself.

I know I need to start now.
Now is the best time to do so.