Every time I doubt myself
I will scold myself
Because I will expect that to be the paranoid side of me
working up again
I will expect that to be my low self confidence
working up again.
So I will tell myself to move on
But now it's really a huge question mark.
Or maybe I am just tired after not sleeping for a whole day.
Am I really really suited for this course?
I just look at the things I design
and it just looks weird to me
as though I'm not doing things right.
Maybe after 2 days of staring at the sketch-up
trying to sort out the spaces have made me sick and tired of this
that I no longer wished to think about anything related to design.
It's killing my motivation to continue designing.
I'm just fed-up
It's draining my life away.
I could not meet up with my friend
I haven't play basketball for nearly 3 weeks.
Tomorrow's TK trip I also cannot afford to go.
I mean, yeah of course
If I were to manage time I can do all these
But what the heck?
It's like.
Damn.
Whatever.
I'm too fed-up to talk about this.
Screw this shit
Hopefully a good night rest get this shitty feeling out of me.