Ever since the holidays began..
Some more it ended on a low note.
Things have been coming at me one after another
I feel like I really need a break.
A small break wouldn't hurt... right?
But I guess I can't afford to.
I don't know.
My low self esteem is growing.
I know it's not the time to bring myself down.
It's not the time to be thinking so much.
It's not time to be giving up, the world doesn't stop for me.
I should be thinking about how to get out of all these crap situations.
But the thing is
I have really no idea how.
I am coming to realize myself
as such a selfish individual.
Maybe those conflicts were just my fault?
I really don't know.
I can tell you I am still clear in the head.
I am thinking about how I can solve all these problems.
I even compare myself to the rest
and ask myself, why am I in this state now?
While everyone is happy and focus
I am there, lost and wandering.
It's not that I am emo-ing or whatever
I just don't know what to do.
I can't keep everyone happy.
Furthermore I am making myself feel the worse.
I really just want time alone.
Don't ask me out or anything.
Give me time, don't stress me out.
Lemme get myself out of this crappy state.
And hopefully, I will be my crazy self again.
Still got a brief to work on.
Bye.
Lakers stay focus
and win that damn Larry O'Brien Trophy tomorrow.