如果超人会飞 那就让我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰这个世界 会让我 觉得好一些
拯救地球好累 虽然有些疲惫 但我还是会
不要问我哭过了没 因为超人不能流眼泪
Don't be stupid.
Looking back doesn't change things.
Time doesn't wait for you.
You have to make the change for the future.
I really wished those words could slap me right in my face.
What do I want from the past?
I want myself back.
Yes I know I can't turn back time.
But I wished I could change back to my old self.
I know maybe I just demand too much from myself sometimes.
When I do well, I think i can do much, much better.
When I am really disastrous, I totally demoralize myself.
Maybe I just can't accept failures?
Sometimes I feel so fake.
Like I do something just for the sake of it.
I cheat others and I cheat myself.
I just feel like I am a liar, maybe even a two-faced bloody asshole.
I was quiet.
I was calm and approachable.
I could keep secrets.
I was humble and just a hard-worker.
Whenever I looked back, I could feel so much respect for who I used to be.
Now?
I may be more outgoing, but somehow, I changed.
I don't know how. I don't know what.
I just feel it.
I just want to change back to who I used to be.
But I don't know how.
I may be a boring person but honestly I don't care.
Because I won't cheat you and I won't cheat myself.
I like to accept facts, whether they hurt or not.
Because I don't want to lie to myself.
If I do, I will never learn from mistakes.
I understand that people are different and sometimes
you have to change to adapt.
I know that and I can see situations before I change.
Maybe I'm just stubborn
sometimes I don't see the need to change.
Sometimes, others may not like that.
I always remind myself, just enough is good enough.
I know how arrogant and big-headed I can get.
I want to be a nobody
so that I can always look up to somebody and remind myself
I must never stop working hard.
I always feel the need to help someone who needs help.
Because sometimes people can't help themselves.
Sometimes they need to be guided before they can fly.
Sometimes I see people I know.
But I don't know how to say hi.
So I start feeling bad about it.
So fake of myself.
Well?
So much thoughts on my mind.
But I don't know where to start changing.
Maybe I just need to get rid of my fears.
I fear too much.
Far too much.