One more month till my birthday

and I still think I am immature.

Suddenly another low point hits me.

I was okay and suddenly I can't seem to pull myself out from this one.

I've always known myself

as a strong-willed person

Whenever I have personal problems

I tend to depend on myself because I believe that there will be a way out.

I believe that I can make it through

and most of the time I succeeded.

I care a lot about things

sometimes way beyond the limit.

I know I'm the type of person

who is willing to spend hours and hours listening

to someone rant, complain, emo on and on.

Even if I get tired at times, I will still continue to listen

Because that's the right thing to do, isn't it?

I seldom find people to talk about my problems

unless I really don't know what to do.

I get upset sometimes

because when I can spend hours listening to someone talk

they can't seem to do the same.

It's as though my problems aren't big issues.

I get upset but I always tell them "it's okay."

Sometimes it really makes me think

is it because they are selfish or is it just me being selfish?

This is just me

I just like to care more than people.

Because in this reality where people are too involved in their own lives

someone needs to make a difference

Furthermore if I can see this and not be doing anything about it

It won't make the world any better right?

If I can make a change, why shouldn't I?

Caring too much do make me suffer more.

But it really doesn't matter I guess

Because if it makes others happy, so be it.

If I could be given another chance
I would be a better captain
I would go crazy with the guys and try to bond the team together

If only JinYi, Benny, Gwen and Fendy were free
then we can just go out and be crazy again.
No worries and nothing.

I will be okay soon
as soon as school starts
when I know I can work towards something
I will be fine again.

There are people who faced worst fears that I do.
So if they can make it through
I have no reason to back down.
I've done it thousand times in my past 17 years
this is just a bigger challenge
but something I know that I can overcome.

Alright
Ciao for some good O' movies :]