Well..
suddenly i just kept quiet.

but in any case.

This may be inappropriate but I just wanna let it all out
and after this...
nothing will really matter anymore

:]

I have been angry at u.
I just felt like I was played around with, or maybe just been one-sided fool the whole time
but that was all the guy dignity thing at work :/

I just appeared to act as though I'm fine.
But as of now, I really AM fine.
really :]

I still wonder if that person is me?
or is that person another guy you fell in love with after me?
I still kind of assume it's me but like I said.
Nothing's really matter anymore.

of course we are still friends
but i find it really hard to communicate with you
I mean I want to show you that I'm not that petty guy
who stops talking after being rejected
but its just the way you reply makes it hard for me to
continue the conversation

But its fine with me
it really is.

because you clearly have good friends there by your side
those are the people you need, the people you can trust and love
I am not and I can guarantee that I will never be as important.

Those are the people who will be there for you
and that is the most important thing
:]

so please dont find me petty or anything :/
but hey, feel free to chat if you want.
just saying hi or anything is fine :]

but there really is one question I wanna ask
ahem
why did you like me in the first place?
i can only recall myself as a nerdy, skinny and unattractive guy
really. I just cannot derive at any answer at all.

haha, I am really interested to know
but yeah. I doubt I will ever get that answer.

anyway it's quite amazing that for these 15 months
I still like you so much.
haha, kind of foolish though :X

so yeah.
I never said this to you in person before...

Thank you for the memories
You were special to me, you really were.
You made a lot of changes to my life you know?
There were sad and happy times but most importantly
you made me grew up.
I'm sure you've learned something too.
Remember the time Fengyi asked me if I liked you?
I never answered so now I shall.
I loved you. I really did.
But now we need to move on, especially me.
If it's meant to be, then it will come.
If it isn't, then it will never come.
take care yeah?

So now, we let go and move on.
We are still so young.
You have a lot other hot guys waiting for you
and I have my cute girls :]

I have my grades to take care off
and of course, to realize my goal, hopefully.

Alright.
Good Night

:]