Fed-up with myself.
Why am I doing poorly for my work?
Yes, many of you may say that I'm being too hard on myself
but rather than letting things drag till 2nd year and worst
why not do something about it now?
Yes I understand it's good to relax and enjoy the process
but the thing is I just absorb things so slow.
Normally my designs are mediocre.
They don't seem to stand out at all.
Compared to others, it really isn't anything.
Nothing at all...
I know I force a lot of responsibility on myself
to be a good sensible kid
to reduce my mom's pressure off supporting this family
but this ain't about responsibility now.
It's my attitude.
I ended up producing a lot of crap for my work.
3D art was the perfect example.
I was rushing my model today and didn't finish the paper work.
Luckily, Rosli extended the deadline.
My friend asked me, "What happened if Rosli never extend the deadline?"
I just replied, "Die lor!"
Then i realized it was 30% of the assignment.
Damn. now you see how crappy my reply was.
It's practically known as "Bo Chap".
Haiz. I don't know how long i will survive.
There's nothing wrong with the subject.
It's just... I want to make my work better.
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Sometimes I look at this family, I get how my mom feels.
She's awesome.
She's been holding this family together for so long.
She's willing to do many things for us.
Then I look at my brothers, it gets frustrating.
One of them is like... lost in his own world or the so-called word 'Love'
The other is living in that world of branded stuff.
They aren't on good terms, making things worst.
How long can this family last?
I don't know.
I don't even want to know... If you get what I mean.
Don't bother?
I wish I could for one day.
For now, I just wanna appreciate whatever I have...
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I'm off to finish up work.
Bye people, stay happy.
Cheers!
I wish I could be like the dog.
Living a stress-free life.
This world is just full of demands.