damn.
was pretty pissed off just now.
but never mind, I don't wanna spoil my own mood.

anyway.. Sunday was a pretty relaxing day for me.

Watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks"
Haha Theodore is my favorite
He's damn adorable.

Then i watched "Step Up"
for the 2nd time and on Channel 5.
It's a nice movie, pretty different from "Step Up 2".
it's a little more focused on the relationship between people
while Step Up 2 is the other way round, more on the dance.
but still, both are good movies ;D

After that was the Grand Finale of Singapore Idol.
well, we all know the winner.
I like both of them but probably Sylvia might have deserved it more
because her vocals were stronger than Sezairi's.
But then again, their own version of the final song "Touched By An Angel" was really nice.
Either way, both were already winners coming that far.
Haha, let's just wait for their album then :]

Then finally, i got to watch 向日葵的约定 [The Promise]
I have to say, it was nice.
Really, for a singapore production
it was good and touching at times.
The ending kind of shocked me a bit
because it was not what I had expected.
But then again, that's probably how it has to end...
I shan't give any spoilers
if there's a DVD, hopefully i can go get it.

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It kind of reminded me a lot of things...
but i think the show reminded me more of something else
something like
"What would ultimately be my dream?"

I may not have gone through a lot...
but i definitely had thought a lot, and i must say
throughout so many things, I've learn a lot.
We have seen so many cases of people succeeding.
People going through so much to bring themselves glory and achieving their goals.
And so many of them were inspirational.
I have even thought to myself...
will I be capable of that?

From birth till now... things have been changing and changing
I used to be a kid who loved drawing.
I would doodle on any paper, books I could find.
Then slowly, I stopped.
I came to love basketball instead.
I would play and watch... play and watch...
Then now, I am grown up.
So many things went through my mind at this stage...
I began to think... What would be my goal?
Even now, i am not really sure yet.
But I do have some in mind.

I never know if it will come true.
But ultimately, it is to help people.
To give people happiness, and eventually, bring a smile to their faces.
I am somewhat working towards that
but it is hard. Maybe I'm not even at the very first stage yet.
But then again,
when was it easy to start with?
This is what I think is the hardest to do...
Because humans are selfish beings, we can't deny that.
For any of us to go to that extreme to put others before us.
That's the hardest step
But then again, that's what I want.
I shall work hard.
That's my goal for now.

I feel fortunate for who I am.
I really am.
I am already satisfied with the fact that I am sensitive.
I think more but does it kill?
I am happy that I come to understand feelings more.
I may not be a party guy but does it matter?
"Just be yourself"
but not just that.
"Be oneself who is not selfish."
this is what I have finally learnt after 17 years
and that's the way i shall go.
I shall be myself.

"Someday we will get there..."