Decided to edit my post. I don't wanna end 2009 like this. but hate the fact that i answered that bloody call. seriously. It totally ruined my mood for today. even decided not to meet my classmates today. ... ... ...
never mind.
2009? well, it was hell of a ride. that's what it's like being 17 years old. been through quite a lot of things and came to understand a lot more. and of course, a lot more i have yet to learn.
How shall I put it? Everything seemed smooth at the start until the problems came.
I went through relationship issues. That really really made me think a hell lot. To my ex, I may have done stupid things a lot. but thank you for all you have done. It was a short journey but a memorable one. I wish you all the best and a happy new year :]
Then School began and a new life started. At first I was unsure of myself. Or rather, I was my lazy self. My results went from okay to bad. I ended my first semester with 3 Cs. So yeah, understand the situation?
The environment in Poly was different. In fact, I was kind of stuck. I just didn't know who I am.
Then moving towards the 2nd semester, I just really thought so much. I looked at my results. I looked at myself. I had conflicts with friends, I had this and that. I figured out that I had to get myself out of this shit.
Then somehow I found a way through. I figured that I had to be myself. I wanted to just do things I felt comfortable with. Of course, not being selfish in a way. I didn't wanna do things just because others are doing so. I wanted to do it only when I really want to. I may not be there yet but i will keep trying.
I somehow have a dream I want to work towards. Things can happen all of a sudden. Those are beyond our control but no matter what. I will keep trying. Failures can be accepted, but not trying is unacceptable. As said by Michael Jordan.
So in short 2009 was a pretty amazing one. I had so many things to think about and somehow I am still figuring a way out. More to come in 2010.
In any case, that's all I shall say. Have a happy holiday and a Happy New Year people
Wednesday, December 30, 2009 @
Is it because I'm tired? well... my mood now is just bland.
got myself to watch some comedy to wake myself up a bit. yeah, pretty much helped. During Rosli's class, i tried to be focus but i couldn't i just slept through. damn.
Was planning to watch NBA match tomorrow morning but because there's a group work to rush so i have to miss it. damn.
In case no one knows. I'm not a person who's always the same. I'm actually the kind who acts according to my mood. So yeah, right now is tired.
There are quite a lot of questions on my mind now. But I shan't try to answer any of them. There's probably no need to anyway...
I will just watch movies and do my assignments during my break. have quite a lot to watch. just got 2 more new movies from my classmate today. so yeah. I will just relax myself. I know I need it.
Linking back to the promise. I don't know why but I pretty much long for a life like that. I don't need to be have a million friends. I don't need to always be playing or drinking. Just "simple" will do. That's the answer. Simplicity.
I don't know about anyone else. or perhaps everyone thinks the same. I just like shows with meaning and emotions in them.
We can keep doing and doing things but i think most importantly, they need to have a meaning to them. Even standing... crying... smiling... nothing matters as long as they carry a meaning to them.
Oh well, just ignore whatever i wrote. I'm just writing through my tired mind.
i need to sleep. ciao.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009 @
Watched "Stomp the Yard" wow. the dance wowed me. especially the freestyle moves Chris Brown and Columbus were really good. also the battle between the Gamma and Theta. like insulting here and there but it was cool. really, should check it out people.
anyway. i camped in the library during the break today. slept and studied. short study period but was productive. i kind of got interested in the midst of it. good start. GOOD START!
actually an idea popped in my head last night. i thought it might be good for me i wanted to try out being a volunteer. i watched shows and examples on TV. then i thought, "why haven't i thought of trying it for myself?" then again, i talked to my mom about it. she is neutral but wants me to study first so yeah i agree. i figure that i will probably have no time either. so for the time being, it's a "No"
anyway. i shall start on my work now. tomorrow will be a tedious day.
when will i be able to do the same thing? to feel the nature up close.
sometimes i think to myself. i have a ridiculous dream then again i wondered. ridiculous is nothing believing is something. nothing is impossible if i dare to try. and so i shall work hard.
strive on!
Monday, December 28, 2009 @
Haha. Damn. The show is still stuck in my head. "The Promise" i mean.
It just served as a motivation and reminder for me so much. Motivation that I need to work hard for my goal. A reminder that life is not that simple.
Hope more terrific shows like that keep coming.
People just get so engrossed in work they forget about that lighter part of life. Even a simple act of just sitting by the bench and relaxing seemed to be out of the ordinary.
Alright. Just blogging for fun. Kind of tired so I'm gonna turn in soon.
I will keep motivating myself. I want to achieve my goal. I want to make people smile.
smile even in a harsh environment. be strong. strive on. Go go go!
@
damn. was pretty pissed off just now. but never mind, I don't wanna spoil my own mood.
anyway.. Sunday was a pretty relaxing day for me.
Watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks" Haha Theodore is my favorite He's damn adorable.
Then i watched "Step Up" for the 2nd time and on Channel 5. It's a nice movie, pretty different from "Step Up 2". it's a little more focused on the relationship between people while Step Up 2 is the other way round, more on the dance. but still, both are good movies ;D
After that was the Grand Finale of Singapore Idol. well, we all know the winner. I like both of them but probably Sylvia might have deserved it more because her vocals were stronger than Sezairi's. But then again, their own version of the final song "Touched By An Angel" was really nice. Either way, both were already winners coming that far. Haha, let's just wait for their album then :]
Then finally, i got to watch 向日葵的约定 [The Promise] I have to say, it was nice. Really, for a singapore production it was good and touching at times. The ending kind of shocked me a bit because it was not what I had expected. But then again, that's probably how it has to end... I shan't give any spoilers if there's a DVD, hopefully i can go get it.
----- It kind of reminded me a lot of things... but i think the show reminded me more of something else something like "What would ultimately be my dream?"
I may not have gone through a lot... but i definitely had thought a lot, and i must say throughout so many things, I've learn a lot. We have seen so many cases of people succeeding. People going through so much to bring themselves glory and achieving their goals. And so many of them were inspirational. I have even thought to myself... will I be capable of that?
From birth till now... things have been changing and changing I used to be a kid who loved drawing. I would doodle on any paper, books I could find. Then slowly, I stopped. I came to love basketball instead. I would play and watch... play and watch... Then now, I am grown up. So many things went through my mind at this stage... I began to think... What would be my goal? Even now, i am not really sure yet. But I do have some in mind.
I never know if it will come true. But ultimately, it is to help people. To give people happiness, and eventually, bring a smile to their faces. I am somewhat working towards that but it is hard. Maybe I'm not even at the very first stage yet. But then again, when was it easy to start with? This is what I think is the hardest to do... Because humans are selfish beings, we can't deny that. For any of us to go to that extreme to put others before us. That's the hardest step But then again, that's what I want. I shall work hard. That's my goal for now.
I feel fortunate for who I am. I really am. I am already satisfied with the fact that I am sensitive. I think more but does it kill? I am happy that I come to understand feelings more. I may not be a party guy but does it matter? "Just be yourself" but not just that. "Be oneself who is not selfish." this is what I have finally learnt after 17 years and that's the way i shall go. I shall be myself.
"Someday we will get there..."
To the people out there Have a goal and dare to dream. So why wait? Life is short. Even a little dream is still a dream. Even a simple one is still a dream.
"I want to open an orphanage." "I want to have my own farm." "I just want to be with my loved ones" "I want to be a doctor." "I want to live a simple life."
No matter what They are still achievable. So don't wait. Chase your dreams.
Believe we will get there.
Saturday, December 26, 2009 @
Merry Christmas People!
Haven't really been able to touch the computer for so darn long because my brother and his friends had to use it for some event. In any case, they will be performing later so wish them all the best!
In any case, I had been going out the past few days other than being sick and stuff.
Reflecting the past. It really shows that time passes so quickly. juniors you may know to be only sec 1 or 2 are all already grown up. and by next year i will already be 18. wow. just like that. so damn fast. BUT I still hate the fact that some of my juniors are so darn tall -.-
In any case, i want to enjoy my last 2 days to the fullest!! later will be a mass basketball session one of the biggest since the TK days. let me count... around 9-10 people. Normally we only have like 6-7??
Sunday will be a chilling day for me. I will probably go the library if i have time. then at night I shall watch "向日葵的约定" on Channel U. Looks very nice, the commercial.
It seems like a simple love story. But I would say simple and meaningful stories can beat all complicated and action-packed ones.
There are also a lot of movies i want to watch or re-watch:
Princess Mononoke
My Neighbor Totoro
Spirited Away
500 Days of Summer
Spider-Man trilogy
Avatar
Sherlock Holmes
Haiz. cannot, must save money.
lastly, I just watched a cute but pretty meaningful video.
Pretty long but at the end of it, you will definitely smile. If humans were to do that to each other... maybe the world wouldn't turn out too bad?
Okay that's it people! Merry Christmas!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009 @
So many questions crossed my mind recently.
watching a few inspirational programs do help.
Other than that.. the past 2 days had been hell. Gotten fever and flu and my body's like burning inside. Can't sleep well and my mind keep thinking of rubbish.
Finally I'm feeling a whole lot better now. But i still gotta go work later since i'm feeling much better of course.
Going to the library now to do some studying and also clear some things off my mind...
Ciao.
To my buddy, i owe you a big apology. you had your bad. so did I. To say the truth, i was really mad. But now I think I want to forget.
There's nothing to forgive because "forgive" is just a term. Being friends means to give in at times if not, how to become friends in the first place?
I hope you understand that my school is busy and that's just how it goes. I hope that you can open up a little more because I ain't your only friend. There are always other friends around you, just that you may choose not to recognize. Being friends doesn't mean to always hang out together. More importantly is that the trust is still there. Trust that i am still who i am. Trust that you are still who you are.
I owe you this. I am sorry.
Sunday, December 20, 2009 @
A picture speaks a thousand words. I agree with that statement so much.
For this post, just sit back and relax enjoy a few photos :]
perhaps they are moments you will never find in Singapore
Vietnam
Thailand
Baguio City, the Philippines
In Burma
In the Philippines
Village Kids in Laos
Padang, Indonesia
Kids in Brunei
Kids in Cambodia
Awesome Scenery
Be gentle to the nature
All these photos kind of reminded me how much i loved geography, especially physical geography.
Somehow, these pictures always give me a relaxing and chilling feeling and that the nature is something we should learn to treasure.
I've gotten Spirited away and My Neighbor Totoro recently. also gotten 500 Days of Summer. Gonna find time to watch them too.
Kay, gotta go sleep. Bye.
@
Wah. Legs breaking already.
body aching sia. Been going out like mad lately... meet friends, work, so on so forth.
Finally tmr is a break. But still going library around evening. Haha, like i said. I wanna read up on books :]
I hope i can get a new phone REAL soon. I need music
Even now is like... body aching but just can't sleep :/
Anyway, JinYi while you are in Japan. Don't forget a souvenir arh! sincerity is the most important. but of course, i won't mind an adult magazine.... :D JUST JOKING. (though.. i seriously won't mind :])
Okay.. gonna take a bath and sleep. Bye.
Thursday, December 17, 2009 @
For the very first time.
I don't know what to do.
I just sat down there.
Staring blankly...
My mind filled with this and that...
They were all messed up. None seemed to be the right answer.
I sound emo. I sound depressed. I sound fed-up.
Don't tell me to cheer up or whatever.
Cause this time... I don't think it will work.
I'm not angry.
I'm not sad.
I'm just feeling so... lost.
Many moments... i dare say I am optimistic.
More than anyone else out there.
Because i know life goes the way we want them to.
So being happy means living a happy life.
Being contend means living a contend life.
But optimism just doesn't work anymore this time...
For a moment.
When i started to laugh.
Started to joke
Started to do so many things I haven't done before
and just feel satisfied.
I thought that I found out who I really am.
Just when that moment could last.
I got lost again.
Things just made me thought again.
Is that really the real me...?
I really am fed-up.
Why is it that when I keep struggling to find out what is the real me?
Why is it that whenever i do something, things just come in the way?
Why is it that when i thought that I found the answer, i get questioned about it again?
I am fed-up
I am really fed-up...
I want to scold everyone who questioned me
I want to just swear at all of them.
Why is it that when I thought that i found the real me...
You guys just had to ruin it?
I even want to scold myself.
Why is it that i can't be doing things for myself?
Why do i let people doubt and question me?
Why?
Don't tell me to be optimistic.
Don't cheer me up.
I want to figure out on my own.
I don't want to be the same me when I was in secondary school
That kid who just emo and does nothing useful.
i thought i was beginning to be alright.
But guess what.
I just had to be questioned and doubt again.
Why the fuck... you know?
Seriously
That's the only reaction i can come up with.
Why the fuck?!
I am not pin-pointing at anyone.
I am not scolding anyone.
I am just frustrated.
You guys wanna know why i did blogging?
It's because i wanted to express my feelings.
It's because i never wanted to rely too much on people at times
I just wanted to blog things out and let them go.
So please don't be offended.
I am not scolding anyone.
When i get angry, i vent most of them on objects, not people.
Don't ask me why
Don't ask me this and that.
Don't tell me to be optimistic
Don't tell me to do this and that.
Don't tell me to be open-minded just because I am not the only one going through this.
I just need some space and time to cool down.
I know i will get over all these bullshit.
And I know that if i can go through all these on my own.
I wont let them happen to me again.
falling and standing on my own is part of learning isn't it?
I will settle this on my own.
So let me do this on my own.
@
Watched Tokyo Dogs ep 9.
One more episode to go until the finale.
Pretty much quite a lot of things i have in mind
i want to do.
Staying committed to training is one thing.
Going library is another thing.
And also.
To get a good rest because I've been going out like mad this whole week.
Need to rest. Body's been aching like mad.
At the same time, here's some photos from
the BBQ.
Benny and Me being retarded... like usual XD
Woots! Terrence joined us too :]
Miss Nani and gang.
A legless Kelvyn haha!
Ivan with his middle finger... as usual.
Before the BBQ.
The girls Benny and Jin Yi... Check out the eye difference :]
Me and Jin Yi. Why my face so big?!
Last but not least. A group photo to end it all :D Thanks Miss Nani for forking out money for this BBQ!
Meanwhile, Miami Heat won the Raptors by 20 with solid performances from Beasley and Wright. Wade sat out the entire 4th quarter as well. Woots. Tomorrow morning will be going against Magic. Too bad I can't catch it. But oh well, go Heat!
And by the way, after Kobe hit a winning 3-pt against the heat. He just hit another winning shot(2-pt) against the Bucks today. What the heck..?!
Off to work. Bye peeps.
"If i get frustrated so easily like this. How the hell am i going to survive when I get older?" My mom's probably right. At the end of the day. I just want to be myself.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @
Holidays are shiok only.
Been going out like mad lately.
Monday was out to watch TPJC play basketball match.
Really quite exciting though we lost.
After that played a while of basketball and then supper.
Then it was off back home.
Tuesday went to Chang Xu house to play.
Haha until like 9 plus then left.
Later is gonna be bball action again at 108.
I haven't played there for so long.
I used to play there for like 2 months after Os
and i improved like hell a lot since then.
But now.. well..
I don't know...
Ha ha!
Thurs to Sat will be work..
which sums up a week of break.
The 2nd week will be more relaxed.
I need to plan time more wisely.
Some time for CC training because we are lacking helpers.
Some time to go library and study.
Some time to just chill at home.
Well yeah.
Oh well.
I realized i haven't updated NBA for so long
because the busy month for drawing essentials held me back.
Now i darn lazy.
Oh well.
Tomorrow 8.30 will be Raptors vs Heat.
Heat hopefully get their acts together.
They have really been struggling and its
darn ugly to watch.
Well that's it.
Bye.
Monday, December 14, 2009 @
Hols are up and its only been good and nothing short.
Saturday was basketball session.
Haha, well.. still trying to get feel of my shot
I really REALLY am not consistent
I have been shooting in different ways.
Oh well. Play more then :]
Then Sun was BBQ.
Well it didn't turned out too fun.
Still, no problem starting fire
And at least we got to meet each other.
That's good enough.
Things like these don't come that often, definitely.
Tomorrow is gym.
Yeah. i need some more muscles inserted into my skinny body.
Maybe going Chang Xu house to play 2k10. MAYBE only.
And my bro's friend's parents already know that i wanna trying out
at their company during the long break.
Hopefully it's successful.
As long as it helps me in my course, I'm fine with it.
Also, somewhere along this break.
I will probably just stuff myself in the library one day
and read architecture books.
Cannot waste everyday playing and slacking -.-
I know I may sound selfish or whatever shit for quitting current job.
people may say like..
I'm lazy, I'm this I'm that.
Sorry but I have my reasons.
I want to enjoy while i still can.
As simple as that.
If you think again, I'm 17 and studying
but hey
I wont have any reasons to not work when I hit my 20s right?
So why not enjoy before i hit the army and then its manhood?
I can say i definitely will work during the long breaks
but not now.
I think its much easier and better a life for me to school when schooling
and work only when necessary.
It's my life.
I know i get soft-hearted easily and just do things for people.
But i'm not like that now.
I can help out and work the hell out of me
but in the end,
i tired myself out like shit and get fed-up.
Why go on like that right?
I'm not angry at anyone but there's just a limit to everything.
I can help and help and keep hanging on like
you guys tell me to, like "if others can do it, so can you."
I will break down when i reached my limit.
I ain't superman.
I am still myself no matter what they say.
But still, i really appreciate the things i've learnt there.
Again, i am not angry at anyone.
I'm just voicing out my reasons.
It's just a part time. Even my bro switched like tons of jobs.
so yeah.
Shall sleep.
bye.
Saturday, December 12, 2009 @
Finally. A good o' break. Many good things coming up alright.
Tmr I can finally meet Fendy and gang for basketball. Lately, so many things happened that I've realized I'm pretty much a different person.
Especially in the mentality. I've always been afraid. Tmr shall be different. I shall go aggressive. I shall hustle until I get shots to fall. Damn I'm all excited now..!
Sunday is gonna be AWESOME too. CC BBQ. My batch, Seniors and instructors will be there. Not to be all tense but to talk crap together. Definitely gonna be a whole lot of fun. WOOTS!
While I was alone packing my bag in the classroom. I stared and glanced through all the drawings we did. The only word that could ever cross my mind was WOW. I was so amazed by whatever we had put up. Whether finished, unfinished or whatever shit. They were all hard work and sleepless nights.
Enjoy what we do, and eventually everything pays off.
So many things just crossed my mind all of a sudden. Because in such a short one month period, so many things happened. I've gotten to know people much better. I've gotten more confident, more of just being myself.
I even thought, if I had been like this when I was still the captain of the Campcraft Team... would things had become different?
And that debrief in class. It wasn't just 26 people. It was the entire IAD year 1... at least 52 or more. That feeling was overwhelming. I don't know how many of you guys felt it but I definitely did. It was like one huge family gathered together Really... Wow.
Shan't talk so much haha! Now I still have work to do. What's that work?
ENJOY THE HELL OUT OF MY TWO WEEK BREAK. HOOOOYAAAAAAA!
Bye people!
tmr Dallas VS Heat at 8.30 either sleep or watch haha!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 @
Walala. Should have gone to school. Would have done work there.
Now slack like mad. Anyway. Gonna chiong already. No sleeping and then go school around 9am.
Was watching latest ep of Tokyo Dogs. The insert song is very nice. It's called Heavenly White by EXILE.
It kinda evoked some feelings into me...
Suddenly i miss those old times.
I shouldn't say this. But i miss you.
@
I think I'm on a good pace.
9 A4s left. 3 A3s left. Already decided what to do for the A3s so I'm not worried.
Then on the other hand, for autocad. I need just probably another few hours to do and organise them then I'm done with autocad. Then test print it on Thurs.
Just need to hang on tough for this last stretch because i know that good days are ahead. Haha! 2 wks break. Basketball this sat, BBQ this sun. Monday got some more things going on. Woots!
Okay. Let's get working.
Always there will be doubters but we need to prove them wrong.
Always there will be people who don't believe in you. But those ain't important.
No matter what we do, where we go they just and will happen.
so the least we can do is to believe in ourselves.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 @
only 2 hrs of sleep last night. its kind of killing me.
I want to work but I'm scared my current state will only ruin the work.
I can't afford to sleep because I will probably sleep till the morning. So it's best to do so after i'm done with my work.
Argh. 4A3s left 11 A4s left 1 A2 left.
Annotations, Dimensions and Sections left.
I need to buck up. I can do this. Woots!
Monday, December 7, 2009 @
Still alive and kicking butt.
yup. near 4am. Still doing work haha.
I'm gonna work on my annotations, dimension and 2nd lvl floor plan later during my Autocad class. Have to get it done before tuesday then i can get started on the sections which will be a killer.
As for drawing essen. Not bad. I managed to do up 34 sketches, 16 more to go. Then for A3s. I finished the dotting in around 3 hrs. Then i did something crazy.
I used charcoal and finished my Panda A3 in half an hour.
HOLY COW. that's pretty fast. but of course it probably isn't too nice either. gonna edit it when i get the time.
okay, gonna get started on sth soon.. probably my sketches.
here's my plan: For drawing essential
ALL sketches and A3s done latest Wednesday NOON.
Use Wednesday and Thurs and do my A2 PATIENTLY.
For Autocad
All plans, dimensions and annotations done by today (MON) latest
Get cracking on sections, get rid of them all to have more time for A2.
Yeah so listen yeah. I BETTER STICK TO THE PLAN. I know i can do this. Chiong arh!!
Saturday, December 5, 2009 @
I've never been so bothered or upset about anything before.
not with that something but also myself.
I've always been tolerant... always been hanging on till the end.
I never wanted to quit at anything because I feel that quitting is never the best option.
If you quit, you will never learn anything that's how i feel.
But I know recently i've changed. I've thought about it so many times. whether bad or good... neither are right.
The answer is simply that no one's perfect. Everyone makes mistakes.
I miss my old life. Having to meet friends, basketball and stuff. Earning money is good but i think probably not at this time. During holidays definitely but not now. I want my old life back.
I've always tried to appreciate life. Feeling fortunate to even lead this normal life. Being optimistic, self motivating. Even talking to myself just to get myself moving. All these may be sides of me you guys never know.
The Me whom you guys know is probably a lazy, clumsy, irritating and sometimes a joker. But the fact is that I do think a lot.
As of now, I've decided. I'm gonna just walk away from it. I just want my old life back.
@
Miami Heat update:
VS Washington Wizards: 94-84 (Loss) VS Boston Celtics: 85-92 (Loss) @ Portland Trailblazers: 107-100 (Win) @ Denver Nuggets: 96 -114 (Loss)
Present Record : 10-8
First of all. lets keep it simple. Games at Wizards and Nuggets were bad. Solid at Celtics and Blazers though.
I feel that Wizards' inside army has always been threatening, esp for Heat who is exactly the opposite. Wizards have solid rotation of good players in the post like Blatche, Jamison, McGee and Haywood.
Nuggets were solid on D and Heat was bad. Enough said.
For Celtics however, we loss but we played solid. Just that towards the end, Garnett stepped up for the Celtics and no one did for the Heat. however, still a solid game.
Blazers game was terrific, Heat led all the way from start till end. every player contributing as much as they could. that's the kind of consistency we need if we want to play well.
Moving on, i wanna roughly voice out my opinions on the players performances.
Joel Anthony - He's a Defense guy and improving much on offense. He brings the defense we need whenever brought upon court. So far ain't so bad.
Carlos Arroyo - Quiet recently. Probably because of the cut down minutes. And also, he may have issues against good PGs like Arenas and some others.
Dorrell Wright - A really promising talent but due to injuries, his future appears uncertain. I really like him, he can do things on both hands, really athletic and can attack the basket. At the same time, his long arms allow him to play good D. Hopefully he can be more productive with more minutes. Sadly, if Heat ever makes any trades all of a sudden, he might be going, that's how i feel.
James Jones - Started recently and more playing time after Richardson injured himself. Somehow hasn't been very productive... I don't really know... I've yet to see him play with my own eyes but what i feel that he is more of the catch-and-shoot guy. So he should be more of a shooter instead of being a SF who needs to move around and drive. Hope his 3-point stroke can come useful soon.
Daequan Cook - This guy need to get his stroke back soon. Really soon. SERIOUSLY.
Udonis Haslem - One of my favorite guy. Hardworking, loyal and just doing his job... but not lately. He's been quiet. Is it because of the cut-down minutes after dropping to Sixth man pose? I hope he doesn't get mentally affected by it. I really hope that the Heat and fans don't forget about him, the amount of dirty work he had put in for us.
Quentin Richardson - Finally back and doing pretty good. He's solid at guarding opponent star players. I hope he can do well at both ends at the same time though. Sometimes hes really quiet but sometimes really good, nearing a double-double. Solid still, overall.
Mario Chalmers - Been shooting better this season and more aggressive. Needs more dribbling and passing and also more defensive plays. I want to watch him stealing from others more often like last season. Hope to see more growth in this young man.
Jermaine O'neal - Ups and Downs. Had 3 consecutive games of double-double recently but then quiet. He's really been good this season but sometimes struggles with rebounds and also foul trouble, which creates a problem for us for we lack depth in Center position.
Michael Beasley - Amazing. Really. Ever since that game-winning basket in Orlando, I believe that Beasley has found his confidence. He's averaging 18.2 pts and 8.2 rebounds in the past 5 games. Really impressive right? I was so amazed by his plays against Blazers. That was the Beasley in college. He was athletic, confident and just playing his own way. He's been consistent as of late and really if he keeps that up, it will really help the Heat alot.
Dwyane Wade - Has been good as of far. However, still several issues. He is really bad at shootng 3s this season and also issues with driving to the basket. More defense has been put on him as of late, making it hard for him to score because bodies are always there to block him. Also, he is inconsistent sometimes. Shooting well at times, bad at times. I really hope he can play like who he was in 05-06. He easily just up 30-40 pts games and take over in situations.
Overall, the heat needs more depth and help from the bench. The starters have been good as of late. We need the bench to step up and work. Because we are having the starters play so much as of late. The starters need to a chill and also for the bench to prove the people wrong.
That's all. Really tired.
Ciao.
Friday, December 4, 2009 @
Hate to admit it. but im stressed up.
im way way behind time for drawing essen. only 23 sketches and 0 A3s completed. Haven't even thought of idea for A2 yet. today's the day for consultation. damn it.
I have just been sleeping so bloody much lately. arent I supposed to be working overnight? I just slept like nearly 12 hours last night. damn. WTF.
I better better chiong from today onwards.
Thursday, December 3, 2009 @
Feel like doing work now but i cannot risk my health. Kinda suffocating at the throat there. any more late nights and im sure i will get fever.
anyway. autocad is fine. getting the hang of it alright. just need to be on pace.
drawing essentials the issue. i know ive been telling myself to relax but i cant help worry at times. im probably the slowest in class with only 20 sketches and no A3 completed. Haiz.
Anyway. Don't wanna stress myself. Life is like this. Just believe and have discipline.
Coincidence or what? I really don't know. But whatever it is... arh nevermind.
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NBA HIGHLIGHTS.
well. sad to say for the time being im really busy plus im kinda lazy to do so many things. i look at replays, get tons of photos and look at their box scores.
so i will pretty much sum up everything fast.
Lakers::
@ Golden State Warriors : 130 - 97 (Win) VS New Jersey Nets : 106 -87 (Win) VS New Orlean Hornets : 110 - 99 (Win)
Comments: We can see very clearly how Lakers are. A very solid team and have been smooth as thus far. They've already gotten seven straight victories. When Kobe plays well, the game can probably be a breeze. Even if he doesn't, there are solid players like Gasol and Bynum to cover up for him.
If I dare to say, there are still teams which can compete against them. They are: Boston Celtics, Orlando Magic, Dallas Mavericks and Denver Nuggets.
Celtics is a solid veteran team with excellent team chemistry. Plus, they have clutch players in Garnett, Allen and Pierce. Definitely a threat.
Magic lost in the finals last year but they are coming back real good. Dwight Howard is superman in the post and Jason Williams is fitting perfectly well as the replacement for the injured Jameer Nelson for the time being. Vince Carter is clutch guy for the team and even if he isn't as athletic as before, he still can shoot. Also, with Rashard Lewis back in the team, Magic looks so much more solid now.
Mavericks is another team looking great and seem to have another all-star group of players. They were the first team this season to bring down the Lakers alright. Jason Kidd is still fantastic at assisting and with Shawn Marion joining them, i'm sure the Kidd-Marion combo will work as fine as the Nash-Marion combo in the old days. Josh Howard is back and playing well. Jason Terry is another cluth player who shoots really well. Lastly, Nowitzki is the main guy of the team and i feel that he is probably playing the best he's every played. Scoring at clutch moments.
Denver Nuggets. They beat the Lakers and as a matter of fact, pretty ugly. I'm sure they are all excited to repeat that trashing game after the loss last season in the playoffs. Carmelo is playing in his prime, scoring like mad and also assisting his teammates. JR smith is another amazing guy who shoots and dunks both very well. However.. i do have some queries. Billups is pretty quiet somehow and so is Anderson. What happen to all the 3pts and assists by Billups and Anderson's awesome shot-blocking?
Anyway, the Lakers are playing the Heat next up. Haha, the moment Fendy and I have been waiting for. Excited alright!
Shall update Heat status tmr then. Ciao!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009 @
New dorama for me.
TOKYO DOGS.
Oguri Shun as usual take a cool-guy kind of role. I think he's really good at acting different kind of roles. The best thing is that his fighting scenes in this show are awesome.
Mizushima on the other hand looks pretty cool and gangster like with that curly hair and goatie. Pretty cool.
Haha then Yuriko is DAMN CHIO. CHIO BU HAHA!
Okay. off to school.
I rolled on the bed back and forth. For nearly 2 hours i couldnt sleep.
I was thinking There were so many chapters in my life i wished i could rewrite.
To be optimistic yet pessimistic. its tough.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 @
Phew.. kinda feeling more relaxed now.
I know i should be feeling stress now but hey why let all the stress get to you and add more from yrself. relax man. I knw im an easily-stressed guy so i need to relax.
There is this duo-band named The Scene Aesthetic. Their genre are more of acoustic and indie pop. They may not be popular but i really like their music. the music also remind me of the time during Secondary school days My cohort went to catch a short film about the Hurricane Katrina. It always serve as a reminder for me about the environment.
How beautiful and amazing the nature can be. Yet how they are fighting back to show our misdeeds, how we have polluted this world. Haiz. I really wanna travel around the world someday.
Gonna do Autocad now and get some good rest later. Tmr probably will watch Heat vs Trailblazers in school and do work at the same time.
Also enjoy this song. very nice.
Craig David - Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)
Live version (sounds even BETTER!)
Definitely one of the best singers ever from England. Darn talented he is.
