Currently 4.27am.

So many things happened recently.
really a roller coaster ride...
not physically but mentally.
but so far, i think im starting to see things more clearly.


I shall rant everything I have in mind and wake up at 8am to chiong work.

1) First of all.
I am working part-time and that has been one of my frustrations.
One thing i shall say is that in FnB
we see a lot of ugly side of people.

customers tend to be so demanding and that attitude sucks.
Sure you come and eat and expect service.
but listen, and LISTEN CLEARY.
We are all human beings, dont make things all difficult for us.
I understand that we have to service you but
we have our limits, we are not superman.
we cant do so many things at once for all of you.

You guys wanna enjoy a good time eating
sure why not?
But at the same time be understanding that we are doing whatever we can
dont start whining when we dont do what you guys want.
why not you just be in our shoes and
try experiencing what the heck we are going through.
I tell you, you will wanna start slapping yourself where you realize how demanding you are.

you wanna be happy, so do we.
appreciate whatever we can do for you and
in turn we appreciate your understanding.
there, a win-win situation isn't it?
feel FORTUNATE that you can even eat with people serving you.
think of those unfortunate people for once.
nothing comes easy for them you know?
we just dont know how fortunate we all are.
we take things for granted so easily...

Moving on.

2) Hopefully and really.. i am more interested in architecture.
After the italian talk, i kind of feel more motivated to work harder.
I saw our sucky attitude when the speaker was talking which was bad.
and also some of the awesome designs.
I sometimes feel the urge to learn more.
find more books to read up and study them.
Well, there used to be nice buildings in singapore but
as time passed, some alterations have ruined them.

To say the truth.
I do have a plan.
But it's a tough one.
I want to achieve something first.
and then i want to use architecture to help the less-fortunate.
I can do things like making improvements for childcare
or orphanages.
i said before...
"Nothing beats a smile. "
no matter what, when one sees a smile that's so sincere
they just can't help but smile back.

3) lastly.
i know i may developed more temper recently.
if anyone suffered under me.
I apologize here.
I have been tired and really want a break.
Life has been tough and it just gets tougher.
Things changed so quickly i need to adapt to them.
But i need to stand firm and strong.
isn't life like that?
I need to take control and not let it control me.
Do my best.



I made a promise to myself that I would wait for 2 years.
I know it probably has no more meaning...
But that's not the point.
1 year has passed.
I want to use the remaining 1 year to focus.
I have been telling myself that and can't seemed to do it.
But after going through so many things.
i hope i am ready and prepared.
I want to work harder.
learn more.
think more.

I just want to be better.

right.. i better get some rest now.
3 hrs to sleep.
more things ahead tmr.
bye people.